2008/09/02

09/02 : The Hives live pics (by me)

○● music: the hives : return the favour

Hey! I saw the greatest band in the world some days ago, live at Gröna Lund in Stockholm. If you've ever seen THE HIVES live, you know exactly what I'm talking about. I cannot promise a real live report but I want to share some of my photos though.

btw, I have a new SWEDISH blog (http://gejland.blogspot.com).



You can find all pics in my flickr-account, "Concert Photos".
http://www.flickr.com/photos/69therror/

2008/08/24

08/23 : Note..

✖MOOD: blah!
✖MUSIC: Backyard Babies : saved by the bell

No, I'm not dead, not yet.
I just don't feel like updating.

2008/07/28

07/27 : Way out west

✖MOOD: very good
✖MUSIC: Backyard Babies : Painkiller


More work to do this summer, I'll work at two swedish festivals this August! 'Way out west' [wayoutwest.se] in Göteborg on 8-9th aug (I'll stay in Göteborg 7-10 th) and 'Typ en festival' [myspace.com/typenfestival] in my town, Nyköping on 22-23 aug. It was a big surprice to receive mail from Way out west because my application was kind of late and the festival is one of the big ones.

This means, I'll have HUGE chanses to see Broder Daniel live again and I'm very pleased for that. I wrote earlier in this blog about them and why this band is important to me.. And their man on guitar died earlier this year, so this will probably be the last Broder Daniel gig.. ever.

2008/07/13

07/13 : Schedule updated!

✖MOOD: :D
✖MUSIC: Bullet for my Valentine : Forever and Allways

Updated my schedule again! (link) :D I'm SO happy right now haha! Bullet for my Valentine are coming to Sweden in December; Stockholm, Lund and Göteborg. And with two support band: Lacuna Coil & Bleeding Through. (I'd love to see Bullet in ALL cities!). I also found info about the next stop in Stockholm for Swedish viking-metal band Amon Amarth. I would hate myself if I missed yet another amon gig! So, they're guests at Slayer's "The Unholy Alliance: Chapter III", along with Trivium, Mastodon and of course Slayer at Hovet in Stockholm on Nov 23.


Oh btw, yesterday I drove a motocross! Not a big one.. but still, it was a crossbike. A friend, Micke, learned me the basics, and it was SO FUN to drive! Unfortunatly, the chain let us down on the way back home lol :/

2008/07/10

07/10 : Goddmornin'

✖MOOD: good
✖MUSIC: Amon Amarth : The pursuit of Vikings



Today is going to be the hell of a good day! I'm in such a great mood right now actually but I can't explain why. Time is almost 5am over here and I'm still awake. I'll try not to go to sleep untill 7-9pm, wich me good luck on that one.

lalalaaa~~~~

And look what I wrote in my last.fm-blog yesterday:
✖ SCHEDULE (Attended gigs) VERSION 0:2 (link)

2008/07/09

07/09 : DEAD IN..

✖MOOD: ah :/
✖MUSIC: Marilyn Manson (lol) : this is the new shit

THE HIVES is going to have a concert at Gröna Lund (link) in Stockholm in the end of August! GOOD NEWS! I remember summer 2005, it was finally the first time I saw them live (at Hultsfred). I've never seen such a performance before! And other good news is that LM.C is planning a European tour for _NEXT YEAR_ (probably on 7th February in Sweden!) which means I don't have to worry about them untill the ticket release. I'll be sure to not miss that release lol.. The miyavi tickets to the SWE concert sold out in 2-3 hours, it was crazy! And lots of people outside Gröna Lund, where the venue Tyrol is. I was there but not for the concert, was going to meed friends and later go to the after party at Mika's Club Shibuya (shibuya.se), this time at "Metró" in Skanstull (stockholm).



LOOK HERE (link) for some photos I took when I was in Stockholm 1-2 July. This is Lily, Chacha and me in the pics. I really had a great time in Stockholm this time. I'm sorry I couldn't stay longer.. Too tired to write anything in english about it.. lol I wrote too much in swedish.

btw I added my SCHEDULE to the menue on the left. "Typ en festival" is the name of a event here in Nyköping, I'll work during that festival :)

07/09 : Dear 'simple life..' [ I HATE YOU ]

✖MOOD: tired..
✖MUSIC: Amon Amarth : Prediction of warfare

Everything around me right now reminds me of how much I miss 'the old days' when I didn't listen to japanese bands. Guess that's why my latest weeks at last.fm looks like nothing you've ever seen before. When I 'take breakes' from bands, I really mean BREAKS and atm I listen to 90% of all bands I used to listen to (and I feel SO REFRESHED AND HAPPY about that actually). The rest % are "new bands" and some of the japanese stuff.. like SINCE1889 or 'C.



btw, I made sushi yesterday! :3

I'm sorry for the lack of activity around here lately. I read comments even though I don't answer, just so you know. It's not that I'm lazy or busy.. but currently VERY sick of my simple un-interesting life here with my mom and sister. I wake up, wondering if I'm going to eat something I won't throw up during the day or not [because of achalasia cardiae, a disease I have], listening to music --doing like NOTHING--, goes to bed around 2am-9am and there it is, that's all. Sometimes I read the Harry Potter books in english (I'm currently in the 3rd book, never read that book in english b4). It's fun, I still enjoy HP as you migh know.. but I want to DO SOMETHING! It's so frustrating, I just want to kill myself out of boredom! I HATE THIS WORLD AND THAT MOST OF YOUR CAREER DEPENDS ON HOW MUCH MONEY YOU HAVE AND HOW FAR YOU CAN GO TO GET 'WHAT YOU WANT'!! I'm stuck here. And don't you feel sorry for me, I'm here because of my own doings. I hate making mistakes..

2008/06/29

06/28 : "..and WE ARE WINNING" :)

✖MOOD: fantastic
✖MUSIC: New Project : god again

YES I'm still alive!


I've got a ticket to the Slipknot/ Machine Head/ Children of Bodom gig in Stockholm on 12th november!!! I can't describe IN WORDS HOW F***ING HAPPY I AM! Lucky for me, I got a Pre-sale ticket just in time, the release was on the 25th at 9am, and lots of tickets sold out during the day. All that remains now are the tickets no one wants to have - the seat ticket. I've never been to this venue before, "Hovet", but Hanna told me it's big! She saw Slipknot live there when she was only 13 and I saw them live on Hultsfred festival some months later.

And I heard the new song "psychosocial" some days ago. oh... eh.. hehe.. yeah 8''D And when Corey sings "we throw ourselves against the wall" 1st time in the song it sounds like he's saying "WE THROW OUR SALLADS AGAINST THE WALL". You can listen to a preview of the song here (link).

I also heard "thc angry chipmunk" version of "Hand of Blood" by Bullet for my Valentine. Over here (link). (BFMV is also one of my old favourite band) I'm _SO PISSED_ because I missed the swedish festival metaltown, they played there and I wasn't there to see. It's so frustrating to look at live photos from the gig.. But this video was hilarious! I LOL for real and that actually cheered me up a bit. I love when he SCREAMS and the guitar solo hahaha :D

2008/06/19

06/19 : bzz bzzccxx

✖MOOD: cool
✖MUSIC: Amon Amarth : Prediction of Warfare

<< << That was me yesterday. I didn't draw that little.. man.. yesterday though. I cleaned my room and found old books I had in school 4 years ago or something. I hate math, and I found this little fellow among around 30 others lol in the same book. TODAY has been gooood! I downloaded music with bands I used to listen to 2-3 years ago. Amon Amarth, Soilwork and Arch Enemy are just some of them. WHY only swedish bands..!? I have no idea. I need Limp Bizkit too, they're awesome. I have a little plan for next summer: FESTIVALS!! Will tell you more later.. And my mom is going to visit a friend in Kiruna so she'll be gone for 6 nights and I have to do the cooking! [25 june - 1st july]. ALL THE COOKING! My sister is planning a party for one of these days.. not ok. I'll try to survive lol but I'm not looking forward to it. I guess we'll eat tacos that day and that's not ok either. My mom is going to see THE HIVES live at the Kiruna festival D: *jelaous* Oh btw we found the last Harry Potter book in my sisters room! XD And I went through my wardrobes and under my bed to find it (but didn't). And you know, I have 2 big wardrobes and 2 small ones and lots of stuff under my bed haha ha

I'm trying to complete my list on bands I've seen live, when and where. The list is not simple to write down so I'm lucky who has saved all old festival schedules (where I marked all the acts I saw live). I'm almost done with the first version, everything is sorted by year and date, and the 2nd version will be more like "how many times have I seen THIS band live and where?" in alphabetical order.. You'll see when I'm done with it.
Here is a link to the 1st version.

06/19 : Something in the way..

✖MOOD: ..wierd!
✖MUSIC: Slipknot : people = shit

I have strange thoughts.. this ain't normal! I can't be normal!? And yesterday I deleted all D'espairsRay music and videos from my computer :D Not actually deleted, I burned it to CD's, then I deleted.. I experienced the what a releif feeling. And I still don't sleep at nights.. I watched two movies tonight and ate strawberries, hello simple life. "Edward Scissorhands" and "Interview with a Vampire", long time no see.. lalalaa~ And I don't look forward for the next despa release, I don't want to buy that new single x2 mostly because: I don't give a shit about their new "music" and I'm as poor as a homeless. I can't lay my last money on something as common as cd's when I want to be sure to have at least 40€ for a ticket to Slipknot.


JOEY JORDISON, DRUM SOLO


lol everything around me is. getting. ON. MY. NERVES!
Not this video though.. Joey Jordison, oh I really like this drummer. [Yeah I feel like x-posting this video, I have a weakness for drummers and specially drum solos like this one 8'DD]. I remmeber summer 2005 when I saw all my previous favourite bands live. Wednesday 13 and Slipknot during the Hultsfred festival, Dir en grey and D'espairsRay in Paris. It was wonderful! :')

And I have a new blog layout again (unless you didn't notice XD) I don't care if you like it or not, I feel like white/grey/black right now even though it sounds depressing :)

2008/06/13

06/13 : LMAO!!! X''D

✖MOOD: amused
✖MUSIC: Slipknot : the heretic anthem



Funny indeed, I'll marry Joey Jordison (from Slipknot/Murderdolls), I'll live like a rockstar with him in Disney Land and we'll get one child. ha ha ha!

06/13 : Oh happy daaay..!!

✖MOOD: OMG ADIUGA;VD"/"//"&/""! :''D
✖MUSIC: Millencolin : Ray

SLIPKNOT* IS COMING TO
STOCKHOLM :'''D


12th november 2008 at Hovet in Stockholm [SWE] and it's official news from the OHP (look at "0000.NEWS"). I first saw it at last.fm and was like "NO! what?!! .... WAIT a sec.. O______O;;!".

*one of my old favourite band

2008/06/11

06/11 : "Nobody puts Baby in the corner!"

✖MOOD: angry, hungry, bored D:
✖MUSIC: ネガ : DIS.

My stomach hurts because I haven't had a REALLY GOOD MEAL in days.. I can't cook, therefore my mom has to do everything. I'm not lazy, I just CAN'T make food. The job I had during that festival "Vrål" in Norrköping was ok. Not THAT fun but I learned alot. My job was.. complicated. It was like everyone BACKSTAGE had to do everything backstage, not just one thing. I didn't think we did a great job, we tried but no - we could have done much much better. For the job, I got free entrance the other day. I'm sorry to say that it was unfortunatly boring as hell.. like NO PEOPLE where there. The festival area could take 2000 ppl, only 400-500 showed up on the 1st day and like none showed up the 2nd day :/ I was in Norrköping with Malin in 3 nights, it's as long time as we're going to stay in Paris in september. I'm still looking forward to the Paris trip but not as much as before.. you see I really need to save money. I only have 700SEK (it's not even 100€) and I still have no job. I feel stressed but I'll try as hard as I possibly can to sell lots of stuff at tradera.com this summer (swedish auction site). Some days ago I got mail from Japan, I had bought 310 japanese fliers/flyers. I paid 1.8 SEK each and for example; if I sell each flier for 10SEK I'll all together get 3100 SEK! X''D (~310€?) WOHA!

But I'm still hungry, and my room looks like a mess because of all things I want to sell. The weather has been boiling hot for over a week! And I really want to be somewhere else right now, at the Hultsfred festival in Hultsfred (swe) :( Bands like HIM, THE HIVES and RAGE AGAINST THE MACHINE will be there this weekend. And I love festivals ._. I think I'll to make a list of festivals I'd like to go to net summer and then we'll see if I get any job at one or two of them. It would be great -free entrance - all I have to do is my job and then I'll have more to write about in my applications (when I look for other jobs).

Last days has been.. boring. All I've done is watching movies like Pirates of the Caribbean, Harry Potter, Bring It On and Dirty Dancing :( I'm allways so bored when I'm home. I actually HATE my simple boring life so much! ah.. whatever. bye

2008/06/10

06/10 : I ate "Polly" some days ago..

✖MOOD: bored .. lol
✖MUSIC: D'espairsRay :

Funny, because I have a friend named Polly, so this one is for her xD
It's chocolate candy, do you have "Polly" in the US? :D

2008/06/03

06/03 : f[a]il!

✖MOOD: angry D:
✖MUSIC: none

I believe that some people can stay the same for MANY years, never to change. (Don't know if it's a good or bad thing..) While other people change too much, then you realise you don't know them anymore. This is how I feel about my sister, she has changed too much - she's like a person and I don't know her at all. I miss my sister. Hair cut failed btw! And that's why I'm angry.. no wait I'm not angry, I'm furious T____T!!! I will never EVER go to that same person again to do a not-so-complicated-haricut.

To might cheer things up a little I'm now going to list 7 songs I'm into right now (because I got tagged by Polly XD) "List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now, shaping your spring. Post these instructions in your LJ along with your 7 songs. Then tag 7 other people to see what they're listening to.

Randomly listed:

01 // Broder Daniel : When we were winning (long version)
02 // THE PIASS : 奇生虫
03 // ℃ : 電車男
04 // Mindless self indulgence : Daddy
05 // SINCE1889 : HERO
06 // HAKUEI : 昇天
07 // 【_Vani;lla】: 悪行懺悔

2008/06/02

06/02 : lol.. I love music.

✖MOOD: amused
✖MUSIC: Antiloop : in my mind

LOL my music taste is so like black and white, it's amusing XD
And the last week is a perfect example:

01 : The Piass // 268
02 : Broder Daniel // 79
03 : Antiloop // 55
04 : ℃ // 33
04 : DéspairsRay // 33
06 : Mindless Self Indulgence // 22
07 : Plastic Tree // 19
08 : SINCE1889 // 18
08 : 【_Vani;lla】 // 18
10 : アンティック-珈琲店- // 14

btw, FRIENDS! Add me if you haven't already! :o
http://www.last.fm/user/hiroshitoshi/

2008/06/01

06/01 : "When we were heroes, when we were winning.."

✖MOOD: still tired.
✖MUSIC: Broder Daniel : When we were winning


There was/is a swedish band called Broder Daniel (broder = brother) from Göteborg. A ugly swedish man called Håkan Hellström was in the band years ago but left for a successfull solo project. But in my opinion, the dude can't sing. I had only heard a very few songs from BD (Broder Daniel) before I went to one of the biggest festivals in Sweden back in 2004, "the Hultsfred festival". I went to the festival with a friend and without permission from my parents, last concert we saw last night was the BD concret.. they touched me so much. I was in tears when we went back to the camp. Ever since, they've been very special to me although I've only seen them live once.

The band has pretty much disbanded, (or maybe not but a BD concert seems to be very rare) I don't know why but perhaps because of the death of the guitarist. Apparently he comitted suicide some months ago ._. The thing is that they'll have a new gig in Göteborg this summer - in honour of their lost guitarist, I don't want to miss it but as I've told before - I have no money. And THAT IS really bothering me right now besides the "I need a job" issue :/ They're special to me, like the band HIM and I don't want to miss this.. But the gig is during a festival called Way Out West and the entrance is around 1300 SEK, and that's TOO MUCH!

Hmm.. but if I manage to get a job at the festival I'll get in FOR FREE.

read the lyrics for "when we were winning"! :'o
The long version is acoustic and so beautiful.

06/01 : 1st June.. well well..

✖MOOD: tired & restless :c
✖MUSIC: Broder daniel : When we were winning

"To the well-organized mind,
death is but the next great adventure."


I'm once again into the Harry Potter books because of my friend Linda (who's complaining about the lack of news and rumours concerning the 6th HP movie X''D poor thing <3). I finnished the first HP book, once again. LONG TIME NO READ. To be honest, I haven't read a single book since the latest/last HP book in july/august last summer. And long time since last time I read the first book, however, I've never read it in english (only the two last books) untill now. English is for me almost as easy as swedish, I understand much more words than I dare to use when I talk. (I guess that's why some english ppl I've met think I'm shy :/). And I accidently updated myself in the D'espairsRay world, they'll have a 2nd Japan tour this year and the 9th anniversary date is up. I won't go, only when I have a job I can seriousley think of travveling to Japan for these old men [aka despa] lol. Swedish New Nippon will announce a new concert on 17th august and I was quite relieved to see that despa has a tour-date in JP on the 16th, they can't come to Sweden the next day to have a concert, impossible! :'''D Stay where you are for as long as you like. I don't mind. But I'd see them live IF they came back of course. And yes, I still want to see them live in Japan on their 10th Anniversary next year.


Now back to reality. I still haven't got a job and I REALLY need one.. I know I must go to a place called arbetsförmedlingen to get help and a first start and.. yeah you know. I don't know anythung at all about having a job. hm... but I'll FINNALY have a new hair cut next week and I'm also going back to Norrköping next week for that music festival job :D oh and my mom will finally buy me new glasses :3 I'm very excited about the festival job because I'll be BACKSTAGE!!

2008/05/29

05/29 : Camaroooo~

✖MOOD: lol bored.
✖MUSIC: THE PIASS : 奇生虫

Oh and here is a picture of another Camaro I've seen in Nyköping.
It was at Vipsen on 1st May :3

Off to read Harry Potter and the Philosopher's stone 8)

05/29 : Yesterday [ cars \m/ ]

✖MOOD: bored -KILL ME!!! T___T-
✖MUSIC: THE PIASS : 性的ウイルス~StoM1079~


@ the Harbour, Nyköping.


Cars everywhere! Cadillac, Buick, Rolls Royce, DeVille, Camaro, Impala.... you name it. Owners of old and beautiful cars from Nyköping and all around! People everywhere! This was the premiere "Harbour meeting", arranged by the Automobilsällskapet Nyköping [Automobile group?]. Every wednesday, every summer there'll be a new meeting with a different theme. But because of the premiere - all cars where welcome. I went to Nyköping with my sister, her boyfriend and my grandfather and his old Cadillac from -59 [see 1st pics of the small ones].

It started at 6pm, we where there 5.40pm and the queues from 3 places got longer by each minute. I was very excited, "this will be the first time I arrive to this evet IN A REALLY GOOD LOOKING CAR" I thought over and over and wished my dad [who owned a Cadillac Eldorado -71 or -72 back in the days and loved cars] could see me. The red Camaro with white stripes was my #1 favourite that evening. Really good looking, cool and btw I didn't knew the name of the car untill I saw the movie "TRANSFORMERS" XD lol I took lots of pics, here are some of them. The first one is my grandfathers Cadillac -59, I also like the gold Impala very much [in the 2nd pics]. The Cadillac Eldorado too of course but it was difficult to get good photos on that car because there was ppl everywhere -___-; The other pics are just random cars..

the small pics are links to bigger versions:





I saw some good looking guys aswell lol.. When we sat on a café I asked my sister and Henri if they could hold up their ice-creams so I innocently could take a photo of them and a guy who was sitting behind my sister X''D

Don't know if I'm going next Wednesday or not, we'll see. All I know about next week is that I'm going to Norrköping again.

2008/05/26

05/26 : Happy Birthday old man.. ♡

✖MOOD: frustrated
✖MUSIC: THE PIASS : 奇生虫

Yesterday was my daddys birthday, he would have been 60 today if he was still alive. I went to his grave with flowers, I hope he likes them since they're from our garden and all. He would have been so proud of me today if he saw me.. :/ I miss him like hell! But not even in Harry Potter you can bring the dead back. And I miss my Harry Potter books too.. I have no idea where they are!! :C



I'm going to Norrköping tomorrow, to the final meeting before the music festival Vrål. I'll meet Malin and sleep over at her place. She has a new apartment so we'll probably go and check it out (she hasn't mooved in yet though). btw that pics is taken when I was at the Arlanda airport with my mom and her friend. It wasn't that fun.. I was tired and hungry :/ Last time before that when I was at Arlanda was march 2006, I was going to Berlin to see Moi dix Mois lol. I'm sorry but I have nothing interesting to write about, I'm so sick of myself and my stupid life.. I NEED A KJSAGFSJGFA"#(/"#%) JOB!!! D''':

2008/05/21

05/20 : "CRY BABY"

✖MOOD: I'm good.
✖MUSIC: Aqua/ Britney Spears/ Pussycat Dolls (lol)

I saw the movie Cry Baby some hours ago, for the first time in my life! I laughed my ass off! I can't belive I've never seen this movie before, I LOVE JOHNNY DEPP X'D Shit.. and the Swedish translation for "cry baby" is "lipsill" lol.. it sounds SO STUPID. I also ate pizza with my friend Linda while watching "the Phantom of the Opera", beautiful movie! I'll download the soundtrack when I get back home.

2008/05/20

05/19 : Jahaja..

✖MOOD: tired >___>
✖MUSIC: Cypress Hill : Insane in the membrane



I tried something new today.

2008/05/18

05/18 : Short about the FMX thingy.

✖MOOD: dead
✖MUSIC: [_Vani;lla] : 悪行懺悔



The FMX Gladiator Game at Globen was AWESOME, really it was SO GREAT! I'm so glad I found info (and tickets lol). But I'm waaaaay too tired to write about it now, the picture above is JEREMY LUSK from the US. He was REALLY awesome and from now on, one of my favourites. I promise, he looks much better with the helmet ON. This one is just one of the kinda crappy pics I took. I'll try to find better photos from this event hehee 8''''D

Things wheren't going so well today, I missed the only train from Stockholm that could match a bus to Nyköping from Gnesta.. Which means I'm home now and I'll hang out with my friend Linda next week. I'm looking forward to it but I feel bad because I couldn't come to Nyköping today. Tomorrow I'm going back to Stockholm but with my mom and her friend, she'll give her ride to the Arlanda airport..... yay -___-;

2008/05/16

05/16 : Song for.. BRILLIANT PIGgy

✖MOOD: ok
✖MUSIC: 蜉蝣 : 迷走本能

I got mail from cdjapan.co.jp today! My package with BRILLIANT and two other cd's arrived. This time I marked this the order as a gift, I even paid some yen extra for a gift bag haha, cute. To the 1st press of BRILLIANT I got a ZERO collecting card and a big poster. It's a huge picture of their new image in purple, the same pics as on the top of the official website. I will definatley NOT put this poster on my wall. I don't think the poster is ugly but I just can't put more New D'espairsRay on my walls. Haha and it's funny how they write the "D'espairsRay are.." thing in the booklet, it says Karyu: Guitars, like if he plays two or three guitars.. The artwork in the booklet is also quite nice. I like it. Ok, so that was it, I wonder when their next release will come? lol.. so poor. I can't wait to hear a new song from this band that sounds as good as I thought hmm.. PIG was. Yeah I liked Squall too but you get the point.




Anyway, this is what I bought:
○● VelBet : Song for...xxx [maxi single]
○● D'espairsRay : BRILLIANT [1st press single + poster]
○● LM.C : Sentimental PIGgy Romance [CD+DVD]

I have plans for this weekend. Tomorrow I'm going to Stockholm with my sister and her boyfriend. We'll meet up one of my friends, Lo, and go on this Freestyle Motocross Gladiator Games event at the Globe [I haven't been there since 2003 when I saw Red Hot Chili Peppers live ^^;]. It's going to be both fun and interesting, I'm very excited ^^ And on Sunday I'm going to my friend Linda in Nyköping, to hang out, watch movies and so on. I wont come home untill Monday afternoon because I'll go with my mom to the big airport outside Stockholm, Arlanda. One of my mom's friends will come over this weekend and she's coming all the way from Kiruna! Look in a map of Sweden, it's FAR away from where I live here around Nyköping.

I've cleaned my room all day.. guess what I found? The note book I had with me on the D'espairsRay LIQUIDIZE tour in november 2006. The pages from when I sat on a café in Paris from 5am to 11.40am the day after the Paris-concert, waiting on my ride to the airport (from a helpful man who said he helped me because God would have done the same). That story from the trip to Paris in nov. 2006 is quite interesting XD I'll try to write a review about it some day. No wait, I mean I MUST WRITE ABOUT THIS! lol

05/15 : One year ago..

✖MOOD: tired/bored
✖MUSIC: SuG : うえすとふぁいとすと~り~

Today is the day, exactly ONE YEAR ago since I discovered the really good part of LM.C X''DD (I remember the date because I wrote a update in my swedish blog about it lol). I'd heard music from this band before May 15 2007 but that was only Oh my juliet and Rock the LM.C, no favourite songs today. This reminds me of early 2005 when I saw and heard BORN by D'espairsRay, I'd still remember the date if I didn't delete the video from my computer. But I'm very sure it was in March or April.. Interesting.

Btw, watching the "Spiral Staircase #15" dvd yesterday made me thinking.. When I was going to see them live last time (3rd July 2007) with Hanna and other friends. All the excitement before the meet and greet at Club Shibuya and before the signing session the day after. How much we planned before that little tour in Europe, how much we REALLY REALLY wanted to see them in both Finland and Spain besides Sweden.. we even checked air line tickets but unfortunately it was too expensive.


My hand is in the middle.
This was live in Stockholm, 2007


My concluison was: I miss D'espairsRay and I can't blame them or hate them for being humans. Even though they've been my no.1 favourite band for a very long time.. they have any right to make music they think suit them. I can either like it or let them be for a while. I can make fun of them around ppl who know what I think and I still don't like the bunch of idiots worldwide who call themself "biggest fan in the world - d'espairsray is THE SHIT and I HOPE YOU DIE IF YOU DON'T LOVE THEM TRULY UNTILL I DIE OR YOU DIE OR UNTILL THIS WORLD ENDS!!!!11". The true fact is that I don't hate the fans, I hate people who acts stupid. I'm sorry for one of the entries I made some day ago, but idiots are so annoying so what can I do? It's not up to ME to tell THEM whats "right" and "wrong" because some ppl are just simply too dumb to understand..


I'm listening to the latest from SuG, the album n0iZ stAr is very good! But currently I'm into HAKUEI's music.. he's been one of my favourites since 2005 but I lost his discography in my computer somehow. I used to have two of his first singles but I sold them (and I regret it lol). It was "ZERO" and "NUDE" :/

Oh and I bought some new clothes from ELLOS.SE today! Maybe I'll show pics later..

2008/05/14

05/14 : ROCK☆ taste of NORMAL LIFE

✖MOOD: good
✖MUSIC: D'espairsRay : 絶望ロマンス

I'd really much LOVE to go to bed at normal time without problems but I can't. I didn't got up before 5pm today (I went to bed around 10am lol T___T). I don't know what I'm going to do, this is my biggest problem right now.

Going to watch live dvds now, "絶叫PSYCHOPATH" by kagerou and "Spiral Staircase #15" by D'espairsRay (I'm not in the right mood for "murder Day" or "LIQUIDIZE" right now). Long time no see you know. I also might watch the 妃阿甦 (THE PIASS) dvd I bought.. It contain material I've already watched on Youtube haha but still.

I WAS going to write more today but I forgot what it was n__n

05/14 : Stupid animals!

✖MOOD: amused
✖MUSIC: LM.C : BOYS & GIRLS

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toppuu (Tuesday 13 May 2008)
why is the melody exactly the same in every song lately...

hiroshitoshi (Tuesday 13 May 2008)
good point there! we should ask them..

KILLINSTINCT (Tuesday 13 May 2008)
toppuu: Good question, I wonder that too!

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The D'espairsRay page at Last.fm... I love when fans share feelings about the band lol Btw, "KILLINSTINCT" is my friend but I have no idea who "toppuu" is, clearly someone with my opinion. It'll be interesting to see when some fangirl (or other) screams "shut the F-- up" or something. Stupid fans. I'd like to live in a world where EVERYONE could stand up and say what they think - without bad consequences. Maybe that "world" is the one that'll come after next ice age. lol I really hate people -____-; Complicated stupid animals........... And no comments on this one, there's not much more to add

I like "Cocoon" but I'll say no more because it'll be too many "but" in this entry hahahahaha!! And I've had too many opinions about this band lately so I just decided to be quiet this time.

I'll be back.

2008/05/13

05/13 : 88th wonder..?

✖MOOD: omg :')
✖MUSIC: LM.C : JOHN





LM.C "88" // NEW PV!!


One hour ago I watched the new PV from LM.C, "88" and it was SO GREAT! First time I heard the full song, awesome! Someone uploaded the PV at MU and MF and also a PV rip so I had to download it.. Someone at LJ, and the same person also uploaded the PV at youtube. I know what I'm going to do this weekend after the FMX Games in Stockholm - I'll make Lo watch the video aswell if he hasn't already! HAHAA 8''D He likes LM.C the same way as I do, I bought a Club Citcut '07 tour t-shirt for him (he asked) and it arrived today. It's the same print as on my own but this t-shirt is black instead of pink.

Hanna might come tomorrow, we'll watch the CD/DVD from THE PIASS I also bought [pics]. And did I bought something else? Well there are 2 LM.C things I don't know how to describe them, but I think I can put them on my cell phone. No, it's not stickers. the GazettE t-shirt for Davy also arrived today in the same package. I'll send the tour t-shirt to him tomorrow, he has already paid me 300 SEK for the shirt X''D (The price was for the t-shirt and all the fees from mukunoki-jp.net) lol, he really wanted that t-shirt!


Anyway, all I really wanted to say is that I love the new song and pv from LM.C. I wished I could feel the same about another favourite band.. I think I'm going to like "Cocoon" though. It actually reminds me of something that sounds good. I want to hear the full track!

2008/05/12

05/12 : "Interview me!"

✖MOOD: good
✖MUSIC: Snook : 1990 nånting

I got these questions fom Polly (norowarete_iru at Livejournal). This is random, but here is a photo of the most famous place in Nyköping; Nyköpings Hus. I took this pics some days ago, maybe Polly will recognize this place. Let me know when you got the little package I sent you. ;3



1. When are we going to JApan together XDD
2. Do you play any type of video games
3. What is one thing you can't live without and why.
4. How many pairs of shoes do you have
5. If you could speak any language other then Japanese what would it be and why.


1. We are going to Japan together when I have money, first I need a job and I need to pay for my driving licence. (In Sweden you can't get that before you're 18 years old. And I'm over 20.. so I REALLY have to do this first before I can afford a trip to Japan.) But maybe we'll meet b4 we're going to Japan ;)
2. No, but when I was young I LOVED the first Nintendo version of Super Mario X''D
3. Hmm... my cell phone! So I can call friends o.o
4. I don't know, I only have ONE pair of shoes I use and that's my VANS lol (and they're waaaaay to warm to wear right now, it's like early summer over here so I need to buy a new pair of shoes again xD
5. French, because I think it's a beautiful language and I want to live in Paris some day to study french and other stuff. :3

2008/05/06

05/06 : I'm at flickr again!

✖MOOD: good
✖MUSIC: SINCE1889 : HERO

Today I started a new flickr-account after finding TONS of pictures of graffiti in Paris, my username is "69thERROR" but I haven't uploaded anything yet. I also started an account in this swedish travelling site called "reseguiden.se". Decided to upload some pictures in b/w from my 1st trip to Paris, (I think) you can look at them here; link to my gallery at resedagboken.se

The site is complicated.. I tried to create a diary with a cover picture of one of theuploaded pics but I don't know how :c

05/06 : 6th trip to Paris!

✖MOOD: tired
✖MUSIC: 蜉蝣

It's been quiet around here lately.. It's 4am here right now and I'm awake - as usual. What's "sleep at NIGHTS"? lol -__-; Anyway, good things are happening, I'm going to Paris again, 12-15 September! :D



We have big plans!!


Yeah, me and my friend Malin is planning a trip to Paris! We bought flight tickets today, 653 SEK (~69€) for each person, ryanair.com is the shit lol. I've looked around for "easy" things to do while we're there, we want to do as much as possible and without paying TOO MUCH money. Like for example, I found out that it's free entrance at the Louvre on Fridays between 6pm-10pm. And I found out that Galerie Lafayette offers a free fashion show on every Friday at 3pm, and we'll arrive on a Friday so guess what? THAT'S GREAT! There's a lots of things we want to do and I LOVE to know more about this city because it allways feels like I have so much new things to see and do when I'm there. It's a really beautiful city.

This will be the first time I go outside Sweden for other reasons than concerts or festivals. I hope we can find a good hotel in La Défense, I like the skyscrapers buildings // business area over there 8) Look at the picture above, and LOOK HERE for more info about La Défense, lots of pretty cool buildings over there.

I can't wait to go to Paris again, I'm really looking forward to it ^^

2008/05/02

05/02 : "1st May"

✖MOOD: good
✖MUSIC: THE PIASS



FAVOURITE

I really like this car! 8''D

2008/04/25

04/25 : BRILLIANT Cocoon..

✖MOOD: don't know..
✖MUSIC: D'espairsRay : Cocoon

Listening to the new previews of the new songs on the [un]Beautiful site, I think Coocon sounds better than BRILLIANT, but it seems like I'm still hard to impress. Cocoon is OK, but at the same time as it's catchy and somewhat TOO CHEERFUL it reminds me of a bad heavy metal song in the end. The clip of BRILLIANT was interesting, almost as bad as the first version from the FC-site haha. I mean.. what the hell are they doing? They can do so much better than this! Arrhrhh.....!!!

But still, even though I doubt I'll like it, it'll be interesting to hear the same songs on the single. Hmm.. and Polly, I prefer Kill Hannah before the new D'espairsRay lol -_-

2008/04/23

04/23 : [un]HIZUMI

✖MOOD: bored & confused
✖MUSIC: MaveRick : 光

I got a mail from Toshio yesterday; [un]Beautiful members are going to receive a set of postcards from the fanclub, nice. He sent us a preview of what the photoset looks like. It was a picture of HIZUMI. He looks like a pissed of mosquito. I also told Polly that he reminds me of old Happy Meal toys, if you remember some years ago, the cats and dogs with big heads? Anyway, I think it was back in 2006. Haha but I can't wait to see the whole set XD Toshio will ship out all photosets in the end of April, which is soon :)



This is what my new icon looks like.
Stealing and using my icon would be very unwise of you because "#1102" is actually my Fanclub ID number.

2008/04/18

04/18 : CLOSE SKY

✖MOOD: cool
✖MUSIC: MaveRick : CLOSE SKY



Some people are looking forward to the sold out miyavi concerts in Sweden and Finland and some are looking forward to the Freestyle Motocross thingy at Globen in May hehehe ;D

Now I have to decide if I want to go on a BIG music festival this summer or not. The price for the 3 days ticket is around 1000 SEK hmm hmm.. It's the Arvika festival I'm talking about and the thing is that I REALLY want to go! Combichrist is coming too..

04/18 : Norrköping report.

✖MOOD: tired T___T
✖MUSIC: D'espairsRay : Quarter void

Like I just said in my LiveJournal some minutes ago, I was in Norrköping some days ago to celebrate my friends 21st birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HER! <3 Now, Norrköping is like 80 km from here and I don't meet Malin that often so I slept over.


Here I am with Malin,
she said it was OK to post this photo LOL X''D


At 1st day we ate food with her mom, dad and sister at MAX. For the first time in my life I had a chicken meal at that trashfood resturant.. it was interesting, the chicken was better than McDonald's haha My birthday present to Malin was a telephone necklace because we are SO BAD at calling each other. This will at least remind HER to call ME xD The necklace looked like this. Later that night we watched random videos at Youtube, like Charlie the unicorn in hyper speed, sped up and backwards. We LOAO (laughed our asses off) :D The backwards version sounded like wierd german, it was so funny! We died laughing and my make up was all over my face when the video ended. Check out the video here!!

On the 2nd day we had ONE very important thing to do, to get to the info meeting about that music festival. But first we had to get up at 7am, go to Malin's school, have something to eat, give blood in a bus (I didn't).. we also went for a walk to take pictures of graffiti, I love graffiti! I updated my lj with all photos. My journal at lj is "Friends Only" though.. but I'll open my other blog "mania : around the world" some day this year (hopefully). And I have the same pics over there so..... ah nevermind ^^;
Later the same day I was so tired so I fell asleep in Malins armchair. At 6pm we went to this info meeting. We got a job at the little festival. Our job is to meet the artists and bands when they arrive to the festival and give them info, artist passes and things like that. It'll be fun! :D And it's in the beginning of June. Some day I'm going to spread flyers and posters over the town (Nyköping), but not today - I'm too tired. Haven't slept tonight -___-;;

some of the graffiti pics:

2008/04/14

04/14 : What's up?

✖MOOD: tired
✖MUSIC: D'espairsRay : yami ni furu kiseki



And what's up in my simple life? Besides random problems at home and without anything to do? I bought Licor 43 and grenadine some days ago.. Them + milk and ice = PINK PANTHER. I love that drink! 8''D Btw did you knew I used to collect pink panthers when I was younger? (Together with my dad and sister). They even made a interview with me in a swedish magazine called Kamrat Posten. I'll show you a scan of that page some day if I find it. I know I have it here somewhere hehehe.

On this Tuesday I'm going to my friend Malin in Norrköping to celebrate her 21st birthday. She's an old classmate from school, we have been friends since 7-8 years back or something. I'll sleep over, on wednesday we're going to a info meeting. It's about a music festival in Norrköping named "the music festival VRÅL", if you understand swedish you can read more here at their website. Hopefully we'll both get a job on that festival. I'd be SO HAPPY if I got the job!!

04/14 : "Everybody singing dance!"

✖MOOD: ok
✖MUSIC: D'espairsRay : subliminal

Just checked the latest FC updates on D'espairsRays OHP.. It's allways nice to see live pics and setlists. Maybe I'm the only one who's obsessed with setlists haha but I don't care. I think it's fun to put all the songs from setlists in the same order in my playlist and then listen to it. At the same time as I imagine what it could have looked like if I'd been there.. on THAT concert. Right now I'm listening to the latest [un]Beautiful FC setlist, problems though because I don't have all new songs lol. The first songs are old favourites, zou bloody mary, marry of the blood, BORN, subliminal, Grudge.. Oh I hate them.. those stupid "NEW SOUND OBSESSED" shitheads.. :C

You know.. ;___;

WHAT IF they came back to Europe? What the hell am I going to do? They're coming back (and probably to Sweden as well if I know Mika right) with a new sound, new image and.. NO, what about their performance? LOL.

You see, the thing is that I have to see them if/when they come back here. I can't let them come to Europe and have some gigs and then go back to Japan without attend to at least one of the concerts. Since I first got into their music [spring 2005] they've been to Europe 4 times, one time for only ONE gig (at the Wacken festival). Also the COUPLING TOUR 2005, the LIQUIDIZE TOUR 2006 and then the Spiral Staircase #15 tour in 2007. I've followed them, I've created MY LIFE around them and I wouldn't have met all these so called D'espairsRay manias if it wasn't for them. All together I've seen them live 6 times and I still don't think that it's enough. I want more and I can't give them up just because of the new sound because there's still so many things I love with them. Can't show "my love" right now, I'm so frustrated so I guess that's why I nowdays say "I hate them".


I was mad at my sister yesterday so I tried to watch murder Day. I started to cry during the 2nd song MaVERiCK. This band is making my life complicated..

It's so easy to write about problems,
but what about DOING SOMETHING ABOUT IT?! LOL ´.____.`

2008/04/10

04/10 : FMX

✖MOOD: cool
✖MUSIC: girugamesh : patchwork



Something I don't think you knew about me, I really like freestyle sports and specially motocross. Next month I'm going to Stockholm and to Globen with a friend (Lo), my sister (Linda) and her boyfriend (Henri) to watch the OGIO FMX Gladiator Games. This is going to be fun! :D I haven't been to Globen since early 2003 when I saw Red Hot Chili Peppers live.

2008/04/07

04/07 : TRANSFORMERS

✖MOOD: AWESOME!!
✖MUSIC: none

T R A N S F O R M E R S



"GEGEGEGEGEGEHHHH...!!
MEGATRON!! MEGATRON!! MEGATRON!!"


What a great movie! [LINK] WHY haven't I seen this before? I've wanted to see it for a long time but what have I been waiting for? This was lots of more than I could ever expect, AWESOME!!!! X''''D And Josh Duhamel is in the movie.. DAMN! He's my favourite from LAS VEGAS hahaaa :'D OMG and I laughed so much! Which reminds me of the first time I saw Pirates of the caribbean: the curse of the black pearl. At first, I couldn't tell if it was a action/adventure movie or if it was a comedy aswell? Well..... I laughed SO HARD, I hope I didn't woke up my mom because it's only about 6am and I've just finnished the movie lol.. I want to buy this movie as soon as I get more money.

And I'm fine btw, I'm not sorry because of school and all, I can live with that. I look at my life right now and trying to see opportunities to try something new :)

"This looks like a cool place to kick it!"

2008/04/04

04/03 : Kicked.

✖MOOD: tired
✖MUSIC: nega : quandrangle


I'm kind of sick of life.. Kicked out from school today, my teacher e-mailed me.. And I don't want to say anything more about it but "it was expected". Tomorrow I'm going into town to meet Malin, it'll be fun. Have to get some sleep now.

2008/04/03

04/02 : Wow I did something today :o

✖MOOD: hmm..
✖MUSIC: THE PIASS : [LOVE]or[MONEY]

I actually did something good today, I made sushi. Nice food. It's easy to make and it's good as hell! I don't know really in which mood I'm in right now.. everything feels so wierd. But I'm NOT going to Stockholm this weekend again even though a friend invited me to a party this friday. I don't feel like going mostly because I don't have enough money (I spent WAAAAY TOO MUCH in Sthlm last time! D'':). In fact, I'd rather spend time with a really good (and old) friend, Malin. We've known each other since 8 years back or something, we can do nothing and still think we're having fun. What I'm saying is that I think she's a very good person and I hope she know that even though we don't see each other so often.

So, anyway.. I deleted the MIRROR-album from the D'espairsRay playlist, turned on some of the songs from the good days [tatoeba, BORN, subliminal..], went into the kitchen and then I made sushi. I ate while watching Pirates of the Caribbean : At world's end. Johnny Depp is still one of my #1 favourite actors. I haven't watched Sweeny Todd yet but I want to.

The smell of wasabi and soya is still around here even though my window is open :/

2008/04/02

04/02 : Another weekend in Sthlm.

✖MOOD: not so good.
✖MUSIC: homura : 海底遊魚

This weekend in Stockholm wasn't that good. I went to Sthlm on Thursday to hang out with Hanna.. we met Rakel and Alex, then Sebbe, Marcus, Davy and Alle. We did nothing really and later I went home with Hanna to do nothing and to sleep over. She edited lote of crazy photos of our friends in photoshop. We also heard mucc's new album lol... I was not impressed hahaha!! So after that she turned on music with a group called Mindless Self Indulgence. Much better!

On the next day I went home to Alle in Mölnbo, it's one hour from Stockholm. Madde where supposed to go with me but she overslept and couldn't make it. After dinner I went back to Stockholm with Alle, now we where going to Club Lunacy to see our friends in KEGIRAI perform! I'm actually going to post a live report this time. I'm done with the swedish version and the english translaton is about 85% done at this moment.


毛嫌い -KEGIRAI- @ CLUB LUNACY
PHOTO: LINN, AND EDITED BY ME.


To say something: THEY WHERE GREAT! And I was very impressed by Marcus (the singer). He has improved much since last time I saw them live, in august last year. They are a very promising band, they just need to get their stuff released.

I was going to sleep over at Linn in Norrtälje, (one hour from Stockholm) so we had to go directly after the gig to catch a bus. Marcus joined us but we missed the bus and found out that there was two more busses, 1am and 2am so we realiced we could have hung out with our friends at Lunacy longer :/ Anyway.. we waited for the bus in almost one hour. I was so tired, so I thought the floor was moving.. I couldn't sleep at the bus and when we arrived in central Norrtälje we (me and Linn) had to walk in 30-40 minutes to get to her house XD

And during the whole next day (Saturday) I felt so ugly, horrible and fail so I don't know if I'm in the right mood to write anything about it. It was party at Steffi and I was invited. I was there.. So was also Lo, Hanna, Sebbe, Davy, Imi and Filip. And Steffi was also there of course. I don't remember if there was anyone else there and I don't care much either. Alle was also invited but he never showed up ._.

On Sunday, the same day as the Versailles gig I didn't went to, I just wanted to go home and kill myself. I felt so bad and I still feel bad when I think about it. So well then.. no more words about this weekend :)

2008/03/26

03/26 : The VANS 8)

✖MOOD: tired
✖MUSIC: D'espairsRay : MaVERiCK



FINALLY! :D


Yesterday when I went out for shopping with my friend Linda in Nyköping.. I was looking for hair colours and random stuff like a new t-shirt or something. I found these shoes, IN MY SIZE, at one of the skate/street shops. Could this day get any better? Oh.. they're finally mine! XD

2008/03/22

03/21 : confused.

x mood : confused.
x music : LM.C : 88



I think it's confusing and frustrating that I don't like the new music and the new image of this band that used to be the one and the only the #1 no matter what. I feel bad because I don't like what I hear so I guess that's why I get angry .__.

People who don't know me must think I'm a very sick person lol.

2008/03/21

03/20 : C'asualsRay

x mood : amused.
x music : nega : quandrangle



CUTE -___-;


Yeah I've already heard that new song on youtube and the not so fair music clip of "Brilliant" from the FC. I still think "Brilliant" sound like shit while I need to listen more to the other new song. Is that "KAMIKAZE" btw? And why do I care too much about this? Why can't I just let them go for a while......? WHY!!!!? I've pre ordered "Brilliant" from cdjapan and when it's released I will go to Hanna in Stockholm and we will have a "murder Day". A day when we'll probably talk about how much we miss the old despa and how much we dislike these new green aliens, also known as D'espaisRay. No, I'm not THAT serious. I actually think Hanna will like their new music more than I will.

I don't want D'espairsRay to turn into soft and casual with fluffy clothes and music that sounds like ["/T)¤!="#)(#]. I want to hear music I can go crazy to! I want D'espairsRay to make FREAKING AWESOME MUSIC again so I proudly can call myself for a mania and shit like that. I don't mention D'espairsRay when random people ask me about my favourite band! I'm upset, frustrated and angry.

Well, then it's a VERY GOOD THING that there's a whole bunch of other and better bands that makes so much better music than D'espairsRay ever could dream of today.. Seriousley. I can't live and breath in the old shit of this band untill forever ends.

I also bought a LM.C cd [Sentimental PIGgy Romance] and the first release from a band called VelBet [Song for...xxx] at cdjapan. Some days ago I mentioned to Sebbe that I like VelBet and then he laughed and said that one of the bandmembers is one of his friends in Japan. I think they met at STAR CAFÉ. So that was pretty funny indeed X'D (And it has nothing to do with D'espairsRay haha).

2008/03/19

03/19 : xxx is coming to Sweden!

x mood : good
x music : LM.C : JOHN

- miyavi is coming to Sweden! (INFO)
- a japanese vk band named Crystal (OHP) is also coming to Sweden. To Club Lunacy in April. No info atm because Robin can't update Lunacy's homepage (?).
- I heard from a friend who works for New Nippon that LM.C wants to come to Sweden (and that's kind of GOOD NEWS for someone like me 8D). He told me that they said that in an interview NN made.

More about this later, I neet do write something about my weekend in Stockholm XD

03/19 :『88』

x mood : happy
x music : LM.C : 88

The new LM.C song is amazing! ;___;
I heard the song earlier today here at youtube.

2008/03/14

03/14 : it arrived today! :''D

x mood : HAPPY!
x music : LM.C : maple leaf



My mom came home some hours ago with a huge package! I almost thought I'd bought a new pillow or something from Toshio! The LM.C hoodie fits like if it was made for me :'D I love it! I'm SO going to wear it in Stockholm today, tomorrow and on Sunday (AN CAFE) hahahahohoo I'm so happy right now!



As you already know I didn't just bought a hoodie, I also bought this: girugamesh; 1 potster and a VHS tape. LM.C; "Trailers [Gold]", "Trailers [Silver]" (both including a dvd), "BOYS & GIRLS" + postcard, JOHN and a poster.

The girugamesh tape, named "VIDEO II" something. 2005.12.5 (random kanji) A STORY [random kanji TERRORISM [[YEAH I THINK I CAN READ KATAKANA QUITE GOOD NOW 8'D]] Is the same video as THIS ONE ON YOUTUBE!! XD Hahahaha.. I don't mind ^__^; Funny thing though that one of the first things I buy with this favourite band is a "super rare vhs tape" that turns out to not be THAT rare because the video clip itself is up on youtube, and it's one of the first girugamesh related videos I've ever seen when I started to listen to their music years ago.. *BIG LOL* Anyway, it's allways VERY ENTERTAINING to watch this crazy band making fools of themselves with a horse head :) I'm glad I bought the video, and in speaking of which; someone is selling the D'espairsRay BIRTHDAY TAPE D'': I still want it but the seller is too complicated, I don't dare to place a bid ._.