04/25 : BRILLIANT Cocoon..

✖MOOD: don't know..
✖MUSIC: D'espairsRay : Cocoon

Listening to the new previews of the new songs on the [un]Beautiful site, I think Coocon sounds better than BRILLIANT, but it seems like I'm still hard to impress. Cocoon is OK, but at the same time as it's catchy and somewhat TOO CHEERFUL it reminds me of a bad heavy metal song in the end. The clip of BRILLIANT was interesting, almost as bad as the first version from the FC-site haha. I mean.. what the hell are they doing? They can do so much better than this! Arrhrhh.....!!!

But still, even though I doubt I'll like it, it'll be interesting to hear the same songs on the single. Hmm.. and Polly, I prefer Kill Hannah before the new D'espairsRay lol -_-

04/23 : [un]HIZUMI

✖MOOD: bored & confused
✖MUSIC: MaveRick : 光

I got a mail from Toshio yesterday; [un]Beautiful members are going to receive a set of postcards from the fanclub, nice. He sent us a preview of what the photoset looks like. It was a picture of HIZUMI. He looks like a pissed of mosquito. I also told Polly that he reminds me of old Happy Meal toys, if you remember some years ago, the cats and dogs with big heads? Anyway, I think it was back in 2006. Haha but I can't wait to see the whole set XD Toshio will ship out all photosets in the end of April, which is soon :)



This is what my new icon looks like.
Stealing and using my icon would be very unwise of you because "#1102" is actually my Fanclub ID number.

04/18 : CLOSE SKY

✖MOOD: cool
✖MUSIC: MaveRick : CLOSE SKY



Some people are looking forward to the sold out miyavi concerts in Sweden and Finland and some are looking forward to the Freestyle Motocross thingy at Globen in May hehehe ;D

Now I have to decide if I want to go on a BIG music festival this summer or not. The price for the 3 days ticket is around 1000 SEK hmm hmm.. It's the Arvika festival I'm talking about and the thing is that I REALLY want to go! Combichrist is coming too..

04/18 : Norrköping report.

✖MOOD: tired T___T
✖MUSIC: D'espairsRay : Quarter void

Like I just said in my LiveJournal some minutes ago, I was in Norrköping some days ago to celebrate my friends 21st birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HER! <3 Now, Norrköping is like 80 km from here and I don't meet Malin that often so I slept over.


Here I am with Malin,
she said it was OK to post this photo LOL X''D

At 1st day we ate food with her mom, dad and sister at MAX. For the first time in my life I had a chicken meal at that trashfood resturant.. it was interesting, the chicken was better than McDonald's haha My birthday present to Malin was a telephone necklace because we are SO BAD at calling each other. This will at least remind HER to call ME xD The necklace looked like this. Later that night we watched random videos at Youtube, like Charlie the unicorn in hyper speed, sped up and backwards. We LOAO (laughed our asses off) :D The backwards version sounded like wierd german, it was so funny! We died laughing and my make up was all over my face when the video ended. Check out the video here!!

On the 2nd day we had ONE very important thing to do, to get to the info meeting about that music festival. But first we had to get up at 7am, go to Malin's school, have something to eat, give blood in a bus (I didn't).. we also went for a walk to take pictures of graffiti, I love graffiti! I updated my lj with all photos. My journal at lj is "Friends Only" though.. but I'll open my other blog "mania : around the world" some day this year (hopefully). And I have the same pics over there so..... ah nevermind ^^;
Later the same day I was so tired so I fell asleep in Malins armchair. At 6pm we went to this info meeting. We got a job at the little festival. Our job is to meet the artists and bands when they arrive to the festival and give them info, artist passes and things like that. It'll be fun! :D And it's in the beginning of June. Some day I'm going to spread flyers and posters over the town (Nyköping), but not today - I'm too tired. Haven't slept tonight -___-;;

some of the graffiti pics:

04/14 : What's up?

✖MOOD: tired
✖MUSIC: D'espairsRay : yami ni furu kiseki



And what's up in my simple life? Besides random problems at home and without anything to do? I bought Licor 43 and grenadine some days ago.. Them + milk and ice = PINK PANTHER. I love that drink! 8''D Btw did you knew I used to collect pink panthers when I was younger? (Together with my dad and sister). They even made a interview with me in a swedish magazine called Kamrat Posten. I'll show you a scan of that page some day if I find it. I know I have it here somewhere hehehe.

On this Tuesday I'm going to my friend Malin in Norrköping to celebrate her 21st birthday. She's an old classmate from school, we have been friends since 7-8 years back or something. I'll sleep over, on wednesday we're going to a info meeting. It's about a music festival in Norrköping named "the music festival VRÅL", if you understand swedish you can read more here at their website. Hopefully we'll both get a job on that festival. I'd be SO HAPPY if I got the job!!

04/14 : "Everybody singing dance!"

✖MOOD: ok
✖MUSIC: D'espairsRay : subliminal

Just checked the latest FC updates on D'espairsRays OHP.. It's allways nice to see live pics and setlists. Maybe I'm the only one who's obsessed with setlists haha but I don't care. I think it's fun to put all the songs from setlists in the same order in my playlist and then listen to it. At the same time as I imagine what it could have looked like if I'd been there.. on THAT concert. Right now I'm listening to the latest [un]Beautiful FC setlist, problems though because I don't have all new songs lol. The first songs are old favourites, zou bloody mary, marry of the blood, BORN, subliminal, Grudge.. Oh I hate them.. those stupid "NEW SOUND OBSESSED" shitheads.. :C

You know.. ;___;

WHAT IF they came back to Europe? What the hell am I going to do? They're coming back (and probably to Sweden as well if I know Mika right) with a new sound, new image and.. NO, what about their performance? LOL.

You see, the thing is that I have to see them if/when they come back here. I can't let them come to Europe and have some gigs and then go back to Japan without attend to at least one of the concerts. Since I first got into their music [spring 2005] they've been to Europe 4 times, one time for only ONE gig (at the Wacken festival). Also the COUPLING TOUR 2005, the LIQUIDIZE TOUR 2006 and then the Spiral Staircase #15 tour in 2007. I've followed them, I've created MY LIFE around them and I wouldn't have met all these so called D'espairsRay manias if it wasn't for them. All together I've seen them live 6 times and I still don't think that it's enough. I want more and I can't give them up just because of the new sound because there's still so many things I love with them. Can't show "my love" right now, I'm so frustrated so I guess that's why I nowdays say "I hate them".


I was mad at my sister yesterday so I tried to watch murder Day. I started to cry during the 2nd song MaVERiCK. This band is making my life complicated..

It's so easy to write about problems,
but what about DOING SOMETHING ABOUT IT?! LOL ´.____.`

04/10 : FMX

✖MOOD: cool
✖MUSIC: girugamesh : patchwork



Something I don't think you knew about me, I really like freestyle sports and specially motocross. Next month I'm going to Stockholm and to Globen with a friend (Lo), my sister (Linda) and her boyfriend (Henri) to watch the OGIO FMX Gladiator Games. This is going to be fun! :D I haven't been to Globen since early 2003 when I saw Red Hot Chili Peppers live.

04/07 : TRANSFORMERS

✖MOOD: AWESOME!!
✖MUSIC: none

T R A N S F O R M E R S


"GEGEGEGEGEGEHHHH...!!
MEGATRON!! MEGATRON!! MEGATRON!!"

What a great movie! [LINK] WHY haven't I seen this before? I've wanted to see it for a long time but what have I been waiting for? This was lots of more than I could ever expect, AWESOME!!!! X''''D And Josh Duhamel is in the movie.. DAMN! He's my favourite from LAS VEGAS hahaaa :'D OMG and I laughed so much! Which reminds me of the first time I saw Pirates of the caribbean: the curse of the black pearl. At first, I couldn't tell if it was a action/adventure movie or if it was a comedy aswell? Well..... I laughed SO HARD, I hope I didn't woke up my mom because it's only about 6am and I've just finnished the movie lol.. I want to buy this movie as soon as I get more money.

And I'm fine btw, I'm not sorry because of school and all, I can live with that. I look at my life right now and trying to see opportunities to try something new :)

"This looks like a cool place to kick it!"

04/03 : Kicked.

✖MOOD: tired
✖MUSIC: nega : quandrangle


I'm kind of sick of life.. Kicked out from school today, my teacher e-mailed me.. And I don't want to say anything more about it but "it was expected". Tomorrow I'm going into town to meet Malin, it'll be fun. Have to get some sleep now.

04/02 : Wow I did something today :o

✖MOOD: hmm..
✖MUSIC: THE PIASS : [LOVE]or[MONEY]

I actually did something good today, I made sushi. Nice food. It's easy to make and it's good as hell! I don't know really in which mood I'm in right now.. everything feels so wierd. But I'm NOT going to Stockholm this weekend again even though a friend invited me to a party this friday. I don't feel like going mostly because I don't have enough money (I spent WAAAAY TOO MUCH in Sthlm last time! D'':). In fact, I'd rather spend time with a really good (and old) friend, Malin. We've known each other since 8 years back or something, we can do nothing and still think we're having fun. What I'm saying is that I think she's a very good person and I hope she know that even though we don't see each other so often.

So, anyway.. I deleted the MIRROR-album from the D'espairsRay playlist, turned on some of the songs from the good days [tatoeba, BORN, subliminal..], went into the kitchen and then I made sushi. I ate while watching Pirates of the Caribbean : At world's end. Johnny Depp is still one of my #1 favourite actors. I haven't watched Sweeny Todd yet but I want to.

The smell of wasabi and soya is still around here even though my window is open :/

04/02 : Another weekend in Sthlm.

✖MOOD: not so good.
✖MUSIC: homura : 海底遊魚

This weekend in Stockholm wasn't that good. I went to Sthlm on Thursday to hang out with Hanna.. we met Rakel and Alex, then Sebbe, Marcus, Davy and Alle. We did nothing really and later I went home with Hanna to do nothing and to sleep over. She edited lote of crazy photos of our friends in photoshop. We also heard mucc's new album lol... I was not impressed hahaha!! So after that she turned on music with a group called Mindless Self Indulgence. Much better!

On the next day I went home to Alle in Mölnbo, it's one hour from Stockholm. Madde where supposed to go with me but she overslept and couldn't make it. After dinner I went back to Stockholm with Alle, now we where going to Club Lunacy to see our friends in KEGIRAI perform! I'm actually going to post a live report this time. I'm done with the swedish version and the english translaton is about 85% done at this moment.


毛嫌い -KEGIRAI- @ CLUB LUNACY
PHOTO: LINN, AND EDITED BY ME.

To say something: THEY WHERE GREAT! And I was very impressed by Marcus (the singer). He has improved much since last time I saw them live, in august last year. They are a very promising band, they just need to get their stuff released.

I was going to sleep over at Linn in Norrtälje, (one hour from Stockholm) so we had to go directly after the gig to catch a bus. Marcus joined us but we missed the bus and found out that there was two more busses, 1am and 2am so we realiced we could have hung out with our friends at Lunacy longer :/ Anyway.. we waited for the bus in almost one hour. I was so tired, so I thought the floor was moving.. I couldn't sleep at the bus and when we arrived in central Norrtälje we (me and Linn) had to walk in 30-40 minutes to get to her house XD

And during the whole next day (Saturday) I felt so ugly, horrible and fail so I don't know if I'm in the right mood to write anything about it. It was party at Steffi and I was invited. I was there.. So was also Lo, Hanna, Sebbe, Davy, Imi and Filip. And Steffi was also there of course. I don't remember if there was anyone else there and I don't care much either. Alle was also invited but he never showed up ._.

On Sunday, the same day as the Versailles gig I didn't went to, I just wanted to go home and kill myself. I felt so bad and I still feel bad when I think about it. So well then.. no more words about this weekend :)