03/26 : The VANS 8)

✖MOOD: tired
✖MUSIC: D'espairsRay : MaVERiCK



FINALLY! :D

Yesterday when I went out for shopping with my friend Linda in Nyköping.. I was looking for hair colours and random stuff like a new t-shirt or something. I found these shoes, IN MY SIZE, at one of the skate/street shops. Could this day get any better? Oh.. they're finally mine! XD

03/21 : confused.

x mood : confused.
x music : LM.C : 88



I think it's confusing and frustrating that I don't like the new music and the new image of this band that used to be the one and the only the #1 no matter what. I feel bad because I don't like what I hear so I guess that's why I get angry .__.

People who don't know me must think I'm a very sick person lol.

03/20 : C'asualsRay

x mood : amused.
x music : nega : quandrangle



CUTE -___-;

Yeah I've already heard that new song on youtube and the not so fair music clip of "Brilliant" from the FC. I still think "Brilliant" sound like shit while I need to listen more to the other new song. Is that "KAMIKAZE" btw? And why do I care too much about this? Why can't I just let them go for a while......? WHY!!!!? I've pre ordered "Brilliant" from cdjapan and when it's released I will go to Hanna in Stockholm and we will have a "murder Day". A day when we'll probably talk about how much we miss the old despa and how much we dislike these new green aliens, also known as D'espaisRay. No, I'm not THAT serious. I actually think Hanna will like their new music more than I will.

I don't want D'espairsRay to turn into soft and casual with fluffy clothes and music that sounds like ["/T)¤!="#)(#]. I want to hear music I can go crazy to! I want D'espairsRay to make FREAKING AWESOME MUSIC again so I proudly can call myself for a mania and shit like that. I don't mention D'espairsRay when random people ask me about my favourite band! I'm upset, frustrated and angry.

Well, then it's a VERY GOOD THING that there's a whole bunch of other and better bands that makes so much better music than D'espairsRay ever could dream of today.. Seriousley. I can't live and breath in the old shit of this band untill forever ends.

I also bought a LM.C cd [Sentimental PIGgy Romance] and the first release from a band called VelBet [Song for...xxx] at cdjapan. Some days ago I mentioned to Sebbe that I like VelBet and then he laughed and said that one of the bandmembers is one of his friends in Japan. I think they met at STAR CAFÉ. So that was pretty funny indeed X'D (And it has nothing to do with D'espairsRay haha).

03/19 : xxx is coming to Sweden!

x mood : good
x music : LM.C : JOHN

- miyavi is coming to Sweden! (INFO)
- a japanese vk band named Crystal (OHP) is also coming to Sweden. To Club Lunacy in April. No info atm because Robin can't update Lunacy's homepage (?).
- I heard from a friend who works for New Nippon that LM.C wants to come to Sweden (and that's kind of GOOD NEWS for someone like me 8D). He told me that they said that in an interview NN made.

More about this later, I neet do write something about my weekend in Stockholm XD

03/19 :『88』

x mood : happy
x music : LM.C : 88

The new LM.C song is amazing! ;___;
I heard the song earlier today here at youtube.

03/14 : it arrived today! :''D

x mood : HAPPY!
x music : LM.C : maple leaf



My mom came home some hours ago with a huge package! I almost thought I'd bought a new pillow or something from Toshio! The LM.C hoodie fits like if it was made for me :'D I love it! I'm SO going to wear it in Stockholm today, tomorrow and on Sunday (AN CAFE) hahahahohoo I'm so happy right now!



As you already know I didn't just bought a hoodie, I also bought this: girugamesh; 1 potster and a VHS tape. LM.C; "Trailers [Gold]", "Trailers [Silver]" (both including a dvd), "BOYS & GIRLS" + postcard, JOHN and a poster.

The girugamesh tape, named "VIDEO II" something. 2005.12.5 (random kanji) A STORY [random kanji TERRORISM [[YEAH I THINK I CAN READ KATAKANA QUITE GOOD NOW 8'D]] Is the same video as THIS ONE ON YOUTUBE!! XD Hahahaha.. I don't mind ^__^; Funny thing though that one of the first things I buy with this favourite band is a "super rare vhs tape" that turns out to not be THAT rare because the video clip itself is up on youtube, and it's one of the first girugamesh related videos I've ever seen when I started to listen to their music years ago.. *BIG LOL* Anyway, it's allways VERY ENTERTAINING to watch this crazy band making fools of themselves with a horse head :) I'm glad I bought the video, and in speaking of which; someone is selling the D'espairsRay BIRTHDAY TAPE D'': I still want it but the seller is too complicated, I don't dare to place a bid ._.

03/13 : Cat/katze/katt

MY CAT IS TOO CUTE X''D

See my walls? D'espairsRay. everywhere -__-
And one flyer from each band; -OZ-, LiZ and nega.

03/13 : Not THAT "Brilliant".

x mood : stressed
x music : VelBet : Bunny

OK, the new single from D'espairsRay is already available for preoder here at cdjapan.co.jp. Preorders will get a randomly selected photocard and a poster.. I feel stressed because I want to place an order but at the same time I want to wait and see if Third Stage offers preorders.

A funny thing when it's about "the big news" from official band websites: the difference. It's BIG NEWS when D'espairsRay add a new tour goods list on the ohp. [Mostly because they NEVER update the website unless it's FC news]. It's also BIG ASS NEWS if Ville Valo of HIM is playing with a Dildo during a concert and someone has it on a video on youtub. [I just read the news on the "GENERAL NEWS" section on their ohp]. I find it very amusing and I personally don't think it's that interesting to see the singer of HIM playing with a dildo..

It's interesting to see how far people can go -___-;; LOL. Fans of HIM are SO BORING during concerts, it almost killed me! I have to get that damn live report done! D'':

And my package from Toshi is in Nyköping, 20 km from where I live and that is NOT OK. The package is there just because "it's EMS (and we are stupid so we don't know what that stands for) and we don't get that kind of packages that often" as they told me earlier today at our local post office a.k.a. Coop Nära -.- I have to go to Nyköping to get my stuff.

03/13 : No bed for me tonight!

x mood : tired
x music : VelBet : Song for...xxx

I just tracked my package again, I made a Detailed EMS search on this site Toshio linked me to. My stuff has arrived in Sweden!! Wohooo!! March 10 Yamanashi - March 13 Tystberga (my home -.-), it only took 3 days so I guess I can get my package at the local post office tomorrow hehehe 8'''D

March 16 is his birthday. I knew it was in this month but I had to ask him about which date. He was happy to know that I almost remembered his birthday haha, I want to send him something but I don't know what ó___Ò; I'm in Stockholm on that date to meet friends that's camping outside Klubben//Fryshuset to see AN CAFE. Going to Stockholm this Friday, Sebbe will cut my hair and later it's party party at Lo in Danderyd. (At least I think the party will be held at his place :O).

On Saturday while I'm still in Sthlm I'm going to look for a cute dress to wear on next Club Lunacy or Club Shibuya. I'm also going to make something new to my hair --- COLOURS! Brown and blonde in different shades and pink. [Note to my english teacher: I've never before used the word "shade" when I write in english, I hope it's the right word for Swedish nyans o___o;]. Later on Saturday evening I'm going to Klubben to meet up with the AN CAFE maniacs (Hanna, Steffi, Erika and Simon) who's still waiting outside in a tent. I'll bring vodka or something, it's party anyway lol and then I'll spend the night in the tent with them even though I'm NOT going to see the band the next day XD

This weekend is going to be SO INTERESTING just because I know what I'm going to do every day I'm there. A BIG + is that I knpw where I can sleep for each day, and I'm on my way home the same time as the an cafe concert starts. So I will be OK and not too tired on Monday when the school starts again at 8.30am.

03/12 : New LJ-icons I made.

x mood : tired
x music : SCREW : 踊

hehe I made six new icons today! hehehe... 8''D The ones named "TSUKASA" and "TSUKASA @ TUSKA" are old. LOOK HERE or click on this pics to see a bigger version. Well then D'espairsRay manias, what do you think? Are my skills in Paint and Microsoft Office Picture Manager good? XD



PLEASE, DO NOT USE THEM.

03/11 : Some sort of an update.

x mood : OK
x music : LM.C : @FUNNY PHANTOM@



"Why don't you BREAK the MIRROR?"

I finally understand the real meaning of one of the worse songs
with D'espairsRay. I've never really liked MIRROR, no.

From confused to anger, irony and frustration to despair and MORE frustration. My feelings for D'espairsRay at the moment. About the picture: I didn't smash the original cd case, that would be kind of stupid :P I received a Fanclub e-mail from [un] Beautiful today.

●NEW SINGLE 『BRILLIANT』
2008.5.14（Wed）リリース決定！

【収録曲】
M-1 BRILLIANT
M-2 タイトル未定

品番：POCE-14103
価格：￥1,050（tax in）

●近日、あの企画が[SPECIAL]で復活！震えて待て!!!!

And the excite translation tells me: "- That project revives with SPECIAL shortly. Tremble and wait!!!!". Which sounds like I have to be afraid now, tremble and wait!!!!. Online translations can be so funny. And I like the 2nd track; "title not yet decided", would be SO FUNNY if some band named a song to that or "New Song" hahahahaha X'''D

This weekend was kind of wierd. I went to Stockholm with my mom, my sister and her boyfriend. When we arrived at IKEA in Kungens Kurva I decided to go into town at once, so I went to central Skärholmen and took the 1st subway train to central Stockholm. I found the street/skate fashion shop a.k.a. CaliRoots at Brunnsgatan that sold Vans shoes (including the model I was looking for!). BUT THEY DIDN'T HAD MY SIZE! D'': My size is "US Women 9", in swedish "39,5"... So that pissed me off. The man who helped me to find shoes told me that I could come back in 2 weeks..

Later I met 75% of KEGIRAI (Robin, Marcus and Amela) at Plattan. Marcus was in need of a live-microphone because they will (as we know) have a new gig very soon. I followed Marcus to a music equiptment shop at Medborgarplatsen, after that when he went back to the others in Odenplan to rehears I went back to IKEA. I found the others at the parking (it was difficult to find the car -___-;;). Then we where supposed to have a great time at HERON CITY, but mom started to cry because of all good memories we have from that place (when dad was alive ._.). So that made me angry and on the top of that; she told us that she didn't want to see a movie at the cinema. THAT MADE ME MAD. Don't want to talk about it..


Here's some pics from Heron City.
I want to have FUN next time I'm there.

And that was Saturday. I also watched Marie Antoinette and ate popcorn from Heron City.. on Sunday I felt sick and I wanted to turn my inside and out! I hadn't ate anything GOOD since maybe wednesday or something. Chocolate bars, other candy, popcorn, pizza, McDonald's, more candy, more chocolate. I've had enough of trash for a whole year!

BTW #1; my AN CAFE ticket is sold for 960SEK! That is, my friends, the original price of the total of 3 TICKETS! X''D And my friend Alex got his ticket sold for 1500SEK hahaha. (960 SEK is 154US$ or 100€). Congratz to me!

BTW #2; I've bought stuff on japanese auctions. Very much stuff.. 2 LM.C posters, 1 girugamesh poster, 1 girugamesh VHS tape, 4 CDs from LM.C and the best: ONE LM.C HOODIE! 8''DD <3 official tour goods hehe. I will come back to this later because my package from Toshio is on its way :''D

03/04 : New Layout 8)

x mood : pleased
x music : LM.C : Rock the LM.C

NEW LAYOUT/BANNER/HEADER?!
I like the header, I just made it in Paint.

My favourite colours 8''D

03/04 : VANS

x mood : tired
x music : LM.C : Bell the cat

Maybe some of you know that I've been looking for a very special pair of shoes since May/June 2007.. A pair of VANS Sk8-hi black original shoes. I've found them in a street fashion boutique in Stockholm and I will use some of the an cafe money to buy them! This Friday or maybe next week or something, I MUST have them! The shop is called CaliRoots and is located at Brunnsgatan 9 in Stockholm, I think I've been on the same street before when I was on my way to the HIM-queue at Nalen. And they are cheap, only 699SEK, so I'm going to use the an cafe money and I will still get some money left 8''D

I had to update my SCHEDULE yesterday because my friends in the swedish band KEGIRAI [see link to the left] will have a 2nd gig! At Club Lunacy on March 28th, unfortunately the same date as Club Shibuya, so I can't go to Shibuya this time. I wouldn't miss a KEGIRAI gig for anything, it's fun to support my friends and they are good, really good. Club Shibuya also updated the website with lots of new dates, go and have a look if you're interested; SHIBUYA.SE.

And I promise, I will write a report about how it was at Club Shibuya! XD I'll probably x-post the report (with pics) to my lj.

03/03 : MY SISTER, shoes & an cafe

x mood : good
x music : SISEN : SaGa







This is my little sister Linda. She wanted me to do a crazy make-up on her, dress her up in my clothes and then take pics of her. So I did, and it was fun :D She is standing in the kitchen, yes we are FINALLY getting a new one. But we didn't won the contest last year about "the ugliest kitchen in Sweden".

I know I had a little bit too much make-up on one of her eyes [the 1st photo], but I like it very much anyway, I think she looked SO COOL like this. The coat and the top is mine, some of the new clothes I've bought lately ^^

I finally decided to sell my AN CAFE ticket on auction [ending this Wednesday, LOOK HERE!], the start bid was 300 SEK (30€) and guess what the bid is now? 810SEK! O__O; It was a very hard decision to make if I wanted to sell my ticket directly to Hanna or via tradera auction. Because she still hadn't got a ticket last week when the auction started and I knew she was going to get mad at me if I didn't sell it to her, she got mad. But we have talked about that now, it's a very good thing to talk.. Anyway, she has got a ticket to the concert now; New Nippon had 13 extra tickets and Hanna bought one the same minute as the newsletter about it was sent out XD So everything is OK now.

In other words, I will not see AN CAFE live in Stockholm. I will meet my friends outside the venue though ^^